Screwing things up again.. what a day?!
Yup, i only blog when i’m not happy.. and i’m not happy for the whole day. i screwed things up again. i tend to mess things up when they are suppose to get better. there’s just something not right about me.
over reacting, extremely over sensitive, over petty, unreasonable, making big big fuss out of small little matters, what other things that i can tell about myself?
my friend once told me that i’m an EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE person, and i totally agree with what he said. whenever people starts to build trust on me, when people starts to believe in me, i tend to do something that will piss them off, or somehow screw the whole "beautiful day" situation up. i just don’t know why am i always doin this. i tried very hard not to.. i will somehow success at the begining, but somehow in the later part, i’ll twist it up again and again.
is being a sensitive person not a good thing? well, i guess that the trend now days is that keep things cool, stay down low, don’t even bother about what others do, just MYOB = mind your own business.
sigh, keep apologizing and asking for forgiveness seems not working at all. more and more people are hating me, i don’t know how to NOT BE A LOSER in life. gosh..
if only i could wake up one day, losing my memories, taking in new things, be someone that people won’t hate, sigh… stop dreaming man…
