Anger within
i feel furious. i just don’t know why whenever things happen this way, i feel furious. things are starting to get shitty again. seriously i’m afraid that all these will affect my emotions, thus my emotions will affect people around me, especially people that i love and care of. why on earth are there such idiots who like to spoil my day? plans have always being delayed, or canceled because of them. and yet they take it for granted that it is suppose to be like that. can’t idiots be a little more considerate rather than being a totally idiotic idiot? must they apply everything from their name to themselves? i tolerate myself for them, but do they do the same back? NO!! NO!! NO!! nothing like that will ever happen and if it does, i think the sun is gonna rise from the west side. i seriously feel like an absolute jerk following foot steps. sometimes things are flexible but yet idiots make it so impossible to be.
oh do you know what the heck am i actually doing right now? shaking me bolas and wasting me precious time. oh yes you’re absolutely correct, i delayed my plans for today as much as 4 hours, and i finally canceled it 40 minutes ago. this ain’t right, but is there anyone else that feels the same way like i do? or is everybody else too chicken or coward to voice out? or am i the one who’s chickening out? i don’t really blog but whenever i do, that means i’m unhappy and at the same time wasting my freakin’ precious time doing nothing but shaking me bolas.
yes, i can feel that i’m being emotional right now. that’s the result of being extremely imbalanced. oh what? life is like that? OH HELL NO!!! there is a balance in life, all it needs is a little bit of tolerance and concern.
it has been proven that whenever things on my side is starting to turn better, somehow in someway that screwed ups are just around me. that means that i’ll never have good things around me for long. things get worsen whenever it starts to turn better. i’ve been in shitty situations more than enough and seriously i’m tired and exhausted of them.
no regrets for admitting this but once i see a good opportunity, i’ll grab it and move on with it.
this SUCKS man!
the pattern of life
ups and downs are all around, the only way to survive i guess is to float along with the flow? if there’s a way for me to go against them, i would love to learn it. i don’t wanna stay at this very level, working hard on learning to reach another higher level.
