me and my basketball
if i’m not mistaken, the 1st time that i got in touch with basketball was in primary school, that time i was still as round as a ball, i was a neckless kid. yup, cant really imagine how do i looked like huh?! well, i still remember i went to singapore to visit my uncle and an elder cousin of mine. at that time he was already in secondary school. he was into NBA and basketball stuffs. when i 1st stepped into their house, there was a basketball lying on the floor. i still remember it was a seasoned Spalding NBA leather basketball. at that very moment, i started to wonder how is basketball a fun game to play. then when i visited my elder cousin’s room, i started to find out that he has lots of collections of NBA players’ trade cards. i was really curious and i look through the cards 1 by 1. once i reach back home, penang, i decided to learn how to play basketball.
i remember that i was in primary 5 by that time that i really look into learning basketball. but then there were no "kaki" to play with, so i didnt really put much attention into basketball. until when i went into primary 6, which i got transfered into another school, i met a lot of new friends and that’s when i brought basketball into that school. we started playing basketball almost every day. that was our daily routine untill secondary 5. everyday after school, i’ll go back home, bath, eat, rush my homework, then will report at the basketball court at 4pm. until about 8pm only will go back home for dinner. that was during the week days. for weekends like saturdays and sundays, i’ll go to school damn early on saturday, report myself at the basketball court, till about 1 or 2 pm in the afternoon, go back home for lunch and bath, then about 4pm will appear on the basketball court again.
unfortunately after graduation from high school, i didnt maintain the habit of playing basketball. that’s one main reason that i’m getting more and more flabby now days. sigh, i really gotta get myself back in shape. tone up some muscles.
i’m gonna get myself a basketball these few weeks then start to play back on the courts! hell yeah!
i’m sick..
after few days of non-stop working, finally i’m sick again. yeah, i think its my body that can’t coupe up with the fast pace of hectic working life. well, i did get enough rest, i think, but yet i’m now sick. oh gosh, how i wish that i can just have more time to sleep, lesser distraction, more rest..
oh well, working life is like that huh? u work and work and work and until the end of the day, no one will say that u did a great job, they will only pick on your mistakes and then say that u’re not committed. they will say that u have to be more dedicated. they don’t see any improvements and they want u to prove that u are worth being hired. is that so? is that the real deal? where the hell has humanity gone to?
sigh, what to do when the world and the society is so fuqking cruel? all i can do is just follow the flow. suggestions on improvements have never been looked into. newbies are always dumb and stupid. sometimes i really do feel like kickin all the smart arse wannabes real hard on their nuts!! god damn?!
i seriously don’t know why but things have been messy all the time. well, i managed to clear up some of them though but somehow they are coming back. yup, i’m talking about problems that i was facing and yet i’m still facing them now.. yes, i can solve those stupid problems but all of them needs money. my situation is like a chinese saying: i have the heart to do it but then i don’t have the capability to do it. the only thing i can do now is solve them little by little. sigh, if only i were more capable than how i am now. friends, relatives and family are all supporting me, i know, but somehow it seems to be kinda hard for me to achieve what i want to. is it because of the environment that i’m currently in? or is it because of what i’ve done which is still not enough in order for me to achieve them?
i’ve calculated my monthly fixed expenses and i don’t have much left after deducting them. i tried my best but until the end i still end up with nothing much left. how is this happening to me? i don’t suppose that i deserve all these, right? the problems that i’m facing now is like a ball, they go round and round. when i solved them, is like stopping the ball from rolling. but eventually it will start to roll again. somehow after several times of doing the same thing over and over again, i tend to get frustrated. and i believe most of the people do.
sigh, life has never been easy for me after stepping into the realistic society. how do i wish that i’m still studying right now..
