strangling with my own “stuffs”
it wasn’t a bad day today, was it? sigh, i was floating highly few days back, but today i feel farking down all of a sudden.. i’m mentally unbalanced… few days ago i was marry jane d1rtyd6n, today i’m serial killer d1rtyd6n.. gosh, i’m sick?! all i know is that i have to catch up with things that i’ve missed out.. i don’t know if i’m doin the right thing right now, but i just know that i’ve gotta catch up with important things in this current field that i’m in.
i am devoted to F&B, that’s like a destiny of my life. but then again, i like event management, that means i’m gonna do both of ‘em side by side in the future. i don’t really know how am i suppose to make ‘em happen but i will try my best to archieve ‘em. its like a dream, u know?
what else can a male living creature ask for? career, family, vehicle, financial, house(s), what else? sigh..
remind me if i left out anything that a male living creature should have, so that i can work hard for it, alright? ciao..
floatin’ high
i’ve been kinda high these few days.. woohoo, dunno what has got into me, but i feel good, in a way though.. i think its becaused of the migraine that i had on sunday, which caused me to feel like vomitting and also lack of appetite. i was floating for the whole day (sunday). i was abit high yesterday, which was monday, and now, i’m still feeling high, oh my god i dont even know what is wrong with me now, as i know that i’m not even typing normally.. shyit!!!
well, one thing for sure is that i do no drugs. and i am extremely sure that this is not becaused of drug abuse or overdosed kinda thing.
i must admit that i was overdosed by work for the past week, furthermore i didnt have sufficient sleep, i nearly went KO.. phew luckily that was over. but, thing are about to get worse as next week will be another week of work in hell. yup, that’s when i really turn myself into a tired proof man of steel. but then again, i think after next week, i’ll be totally knocked down.
i’m enjoying my work and also learning more and more new stuffs at the same time. meeting new people from different levels of the society, from different business nature, etc. that’s kinda cool. make new friends, learn things about other business nature. it is really something that i might not possibly archieve if i’m not in this field.
well, that all that i can think of right now.. ciao
gettin’ all messed up
things are starting to get messy around me. yup, work loads are getting onto my shoulder. i won’t say that i hate it, but i’ll take ‘em as a challenge for myself. hey after all, i’m an iron man, a man of steel, so supposingly there’s nothing that can knock me down, i think. eventhough i like challenges, yet there are times when i feel that last minute decision is not necessary. things would have been better if they came earlier, rather than all packed up in the final hour. last minutem = rush hour. that means extremely little time with loads of work to do. things anyhow might turn out to be a pile of shiats, if u know what i mean. 24 hours a day is hell too little for me, honestly. i always find that time is never enough for me as sometimes i do need more time to do plannings and coordinations, but the blardy clock on da wall keeps on ticking and ticking, that’s very sickening! how would i wish that i can have my own house that i’ll feel comfortable going back after work, brew myself a cup of cappuccino, lying down on the couch, listening to 70’s jazz, with the air conditioner turned on, let my soul flow smoothly with the jazzy tunes, feeling untied-up… well, i am gonna make that happen one day in the very near future, but still i need time to archieve it.. as the evolution of mankind goes on, humans tend to get fussy, they tend to get more and more demanding, and other kinds of shittie stuffs. well, i wouldn’t blame anyone for that as that shows that we humans are getting more and more advance. sigh, now for sure that i feel myself problematic. things that happen always has its own reason, but from my point of view, sometimes things should be easier. rules are meant to be broken. that’s what i believe in. i really don’t know what has gone into me, but there are lotsa times when good things happen, i tend to see the other side of it, which means bad things are on their way. i’m not a pesimist, but i tend to see things from various angles, and i always get myself prepared for the worst to come. at least when bad things really happens, i know what am i suppose to do either to avoid them or at least to minimize da damage that they might cause. that’s why i said, i prefer early stage planning rather than last minute rushings.
