realize…
suddenly i started to realize that sometimes i crap too much in my blogs, right? hmm, its like all of a sudden i got the "kick" to voice out things and thoughts and that is why most of my blogs are long-winded.. hhahaha… i think its b’coz of the preassure and stress while i was on my job hunt journey.. and now i’m gonna start work next monday, i feel kinda relieve…
the urge and the anticipation
ever wonder how does it feel when u’re finally starting to work after few jobless months? well yeah, that’s how i feel right now. after waiting and anticipating for months of not working, finally i’m starting work again this coming monday, u wouldn’t know how exciting i am now.. just don’t wanna keep hoping from jobs to jobs unless its a better offer or things like that…
the GOLDEN years to earn big MONEY
i have been thinking of taking up more than a job in order for me to save up more money in a faster way. this thought has been in my head for quite some time and yet i still couldn’t find a solution for it. money is not everything, or is it? well, from my point of view: it depends on how u look at it. yes, u can’t buy love and happiness with money. u cant buy health and prosperity with money. but, did u ever think about it from the other angle? how will u be able to have a girlfriend when u don’t even have enough money in order for urself to survive? u have to spend money when both of u go out on a date, right? both of u are goin for a movie, u need money to get movie tickets, right? u guys go for a drink, u gotta pay up, right? imagine when u have wive and couple of kids in the future, u need money to make sure that they are not hungry and not sick, right? do u need money to buy health? yes, u need money to see a doctor in order for the doctor to issue u some medicine to eat then only u will get well, right? ain’t that all money? who says money is not everything? true enough that money wasn’t everything 50 or 100 years back. that time people can still survive with the games that they kept at home, they can eat paddy that they planted by themselves in the backyard, they can take up water when they feel thirsty from the well. can we do that now? NO! NO! NO! yes, we can’t do that kind of things anymore in the modern days. we need money to live!! we need money in order to survive!!
i wouldn’t want to waste my precious time sitting at home all day long shaking my balls and hoping for the money to fall down from the sky. i would want to work more, can take up not only ONE but TWO jobs at a time. one in the morning, and the other one at night. if i could do that, don’t u think that i can earn more money from there? i won’t have to eat instant noodles just for the sake that not to be hungry?
life is not easy. money is even harder to earn nowdays. opportunities only come once in a blue moon. so when the opportunity is in front of u, never think twice but grab the opportunity once u see it passing by in front of u!
Taking a BIG step into my new career field..
went for an interview this morning, and it cost me a 40 bucks parking summon?! damn.. does it worth what i’m getting into? finally i got an offer, not much though, seriouslt don’t even know will it be enough for me to survive.. well, at least i won’t be shaking my hairy balls again.. gonna start work 25th this month, phew, it has been a while since i last work.. three BIG cheers for myself, YA~AM SENG! YA~A~AM SENG!! YA~AM YA~AM YA~AM YA~AM YA~AM SENG!!!
just hope that i’m not wrong this time.. it ain’t easy to get a job now days, all i can say is that i’m greatful that i got an offer, but still, human nature is greedy, right? its not ‘enough’ for me, if u know what i mean.. well, i’m a fresh entry dude, what more can i expect? i really don’t know what more can i say, well, like i said previously, it will all be fated. at least i’m fated to get a job now, and i’m actually happy that i got an offer. now its my chance to prove to my employer and work myself up onto da corporate ladder.. yup, everyone will be looking at u when u’re up on da ladder.. i really don’t know why but seriously, that is the only place where people will look upon u, praising u, etc, etc..
well, god bless me in my new career field. i’ll try my very hard to be on da top of da ladder. need more money in order to survive in this era..
job search journey continues..
yup, i’m still on the look out for jobs. Made few calls today, all i can say is that my situation now is 50% -50%, there’s nothing that i can do but to leave things to fate.. i met a friend recently, she told me about something that she read from a book.
it goes like this: A man was jobless for quite sometime. he tried lotsa companies but not even a single company responded to his applications. but still, he kept looking for better companies with better offers, which might be the most suitable for him. he has this mindset of "all these rejections gets me closer to the company that will accept me." and also "as every single day passes by, i’m getting closer to the day that i’ll be hired into a company, and they will ask me: why didn’t u come earlier?"
I just want a simple life. Having a stable income job, a career which i can expand, have my own car, go back to my hometown to visit my parents once in a while… sigh.
I am trying to take things easier now, rather than what I was few months back, acting like a fool and pissing off my loved ones. It does feel better when u take things easy. But still, when it comes to a certain period where u’ll feel depressed and frustrated coz of still being jobless, right? well, its true that what my cousin told me this once, "life is a learning curve, u wont stop learning till the day u stop breathing." i believe that. If things were so easy, no one will ever appreciate them as they are too easy to be obtained. if people get what they want by just a snap of their finger, they wont even treasure what they got.
joble$$ days
i’ve been officially jobless since the 2nd week of August 2006, sigh… this kind of feeling ain’t good man, seriously!! u wake up in the morning, wondering what can u do later for the whole fuqking day, wondering will any of the companies that u’ve sent ur resume in call u back for an interview?!
lets just say its 9.00am in the morning, i should be sitting in front of my desk in an office, right? doing what normal people suppose to do, picking up calls, typing documents on their desktop, bla bla bla…etc.
my situation is different. i wake up in the morning, after doin’ my stuff, then i go back to bed, sleep till about 2 - 3 pm in the afternoon, then i wake up. so its like 1/2 day gone just by the snap of the fingers. after climbing out of the bed, i do what other normal people do for their every morning daily routine. after that, i go for lunch. yeah, 1st meal of the day ladies and gentlement! after all those crap, my day officially starts: waiting for companies to call me back for interviews again. well, u might be curious asking me why don’t i go look for other companies, right? that’s what i did dear readers, i sent my resume to few companies at once, 2 of them called me back for interview, unfortunately i got accepted for a contract job in the 1st place, so i told the companies that i might only be able to start work around December. it feels fuqking bad telling people who’s gonna offer u a job thing kinda crap.. well, that’s what i did, and i ended up waiting and waiting day by day…
guess u dear readers will think that i’m a jerk who doesn’t know how to catch the opportunities while i still can huh? well, the 1st party promised some good amount of money, but the only thing is that they are somehow delaying the deal, that pissed me off real bad man.. i need income in order to survive, well, everybody does, don’t they? sometimes i really come to the extend where i don’t even know what else o should do man, should i continue waiting or should i just make a stop waiting, and get on with looking for new jobs?
my mind has been driving me crazy thinking of work, career, money, family, and stuffs like that.. i still have debts to be cleared off, in short, "I’m hungry for money!!!"
i want my life to be simple yet meaningful, i don’t wanna shake balls for leaving man, i want to make full use of my talents, my knowledge, etc. but now i can’t coz i’m unemployed!
all i hope for now is that i get a confirmation from the 1st party whether the contract job is still on or not.. if its not, then i’ll just go for permanent jobs, and not wasting my precious time shaking balls and hoping for money to fall from the sky.
